I'm some type of animal

But can't remember which kind. I remember reading a book or seeing it on TV about some type of animal that keeps doing something that either hurts them or something, but they never learn. They keep doing it over and over. I know that was a really bad recollection, but whatever.

The point is, whenever I stray off my healthy lifestyle I feel ick. I'm crabby. I'm sad. I'm frusterated. I feel ugly. I get bloated. The list keeps going. Whereas when I am focussed and eating well and exercising, I feel fantastic. I feel confident. I feel pretty. I feel unstoppable. I feel like I can do anything.

Looking at the two lists - isn't it obvious what I should be doing? Who would want to feel lousy as opposed to the option of feeling great? Whenever I'm back on track my whole mood just lightens. Why why why do I ever let myself stray?!

Oh well - good news is I am completely committed. I'm staying within my points, and although there's been no gym this week, every night I've visited with friends (and I think I've mentioned before it's as good for me as exercise is) and I've managed to eat healthy and not even stress about how to not overeat.

Last night Peter & Bubs came over for burgers. KT and Jaeda are in Florida, so we invited the boys over. We had yummy burgers on the BBQ (my husband is king of the "Q"), I put fried onions and a roasted red pepper on mine and a salad. We ate super early so afterwards I was feeling a bit snackish so I had some green tea and All Bran bites (I know it's pre-packaged, processed, everything I said I'm doing my best to avoid, but there are a still a few things I need to indulge in!). Went to bed satisfied. Woke up feeling awesome - no guilt, no stress, and with a smile on my face.

My period is now 6 days late and NO I'm not pregnant (for sure, I'm not) which really sucks. I was finally at a point where TOM was perfectly on schedule and now it's all wonky again. Not fun for when you're trying to get pregnant. We aren't yet, but will be soon. We got pregnant our first try with Carson so I didn't even have the chance to get worried or have to chart things, but I know so many people right now who are having troubles getting pregnant (and quite a few when it's their second too) so I was trying to get prepared for the scenario that it doesn't happen right away, and having TOM right on schedule is part of that. Oh well, maybe it's cause of the stress of the vacationfromhell and having the flu... that made this month be a little crazy. Anyways, let's hope it comes soon.

Yay it's Friday - 7 hours till the weekend!