Friday, June 6, 2014

Not giving up

Never! buwahahhahaha

Ok, trying to go for a 30+k ride tonight with some girlfriends.  Wish me and my bum good luck!

(I have to add that I'm happy no one will be taking pictures)

(I wrote that last night, and apparently didn't hit post).

So I did it!

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Oh my mind is a terrible place to be!

As I was showering after crossfit this morning, I was thinking about a blog post.  I was going to write about...

a) how I completed a swim-cycle race on the weekend without any training (I mean I did a 50m ride at 6am the morning of my race and swam 500m once just to know how long it would take me).  And I did the race really, without any struggle. I didn't do spectacular, but I never thought about giving up, I never was too tired to complete it... I just did it.

b) I am starting to journal my food intake, my workouts, my headache, pain level in my back and I can start to connect the dots between what I eat, how I exercise and how I feel overall... very interesting.

c) I've missed a few workouts recently, working on fixing my back issues and I haven't felt guilty.  It hasn't made me turn to food, it hasn't gotten my anxiety levels up... I just kept on going on.  Felt great

d) Had a fantastic long weekend filled with the race (made me realize how much I missed racing... the whole event atmosphere - people telling you that you are doing awesome during your race, high fiving you when you are done, chatting nervously before getting in the pool), friends (drinks on the porch, playing baseball with the adults and kids), family BBQ with fireworks and tired boys up way too late, sprinklers, water fights, bouncy castle, pogos at the picnic table.... seriously, was one of the best weekends I've had in a long time

e) looking at myself in the mirror and not being disgusted by what I see.  Getting dressed this morning I actually felt pretty and thought I looked good.

And then... then I looked at the pictures from said race on Saturday.  And I cried.

Two steps forward... one step back.

Friday, May 9, 2014


I suppose I've been missing in action lately.  I don't mean to be, I think I just don't have anything to say.  I've said it all before.  And I'm tired of talking about my weight, my frusterations, the scale, my workouts.... it's exhausting, being obsessed with your weight for as many years as I have.

I'm taking care of myself - I've had a major set back at the gym.  I've hurt my back, and have been going to see my chiropractor for a few months and it's not really getting better.  I think because I was keeping up with my workouts, then any help that chiro has done for me, has been undone once again after I do a few lifts.

Now, I will keep seeing my chiropractor, will start physio and most importantly, I'm starting some mobility sessions.  This, is super exciting for me.  After reading, watching and reading some more (especially Kelly Starrett 's stuff) I honestly my body just wasn't' ready to lift the heavy weights that I was.  I just jumped head first into crossfit and reached some pretty amazing goals... but without during the "core" work involved to get me there.  Even though I can physically do it, my body just wasn't' ready to handle it. 

Anyhooo... that's my focus over the next couple of months.  It may involve taking a break from crossfit and working on solely mobility... but that's yet to be decided.

Another exciting thing, is I'm slowly incorporating a paleo-lifestyle.  And so far it's not that hard.  My goal for this year is to be 80-20.  Already, I can immediately identify how I feel after eating bread, rice, pasta.... I feel bloated.  I feel lethargic.  I feel slowwww. 

But if I go a few days eating 100% paleo? I feel great, I have energy, I don't feel bloated at all.  And let me tell you, it's a wonderful feeling.

I'm not totally convinced that a paleo lifestyle is necessary for everyone, but I am trying to listen to my body and pay attention to how I feel after eating certain foods. 

These are some of my eats from the past couple weeks:

1/ zucchini noodles are AWESOME (I boil them for 2 minutes, I don't sweat them). Easy, delicious and great way way to get a lot of veggies into your meal!
2/ finding lots of great easy recipes in these books, by far my favourite is nom nom paleo
3/ pina colada chicken - won't use canned pinepple again, only fresh stuff!
4/ perhaps one of my current favourite meals.  Shredded sweet potato with onion and mushroom, with a sunnyside up egg on top
5/ #4 with an avocado cut on the side.... super satisfying, delicious and filling
6/ mango "ice cream".  Frozen mango + coconut milk = piece of heaven
7/ my trainer gave me this idea: zucchini noodles, chicken and pesto.  Again, delicious.
8/ asian cauliflour with chicken. 
9/ homemade Lara Bars.  I made a batch of these, brought them to one of my 6am classes and everyone loved them!

Thursday, April 3, 2014

You know those days...

When you wake up in the morning (maybe go to the gym and try to style your hair without washing it?) sometimes sweat   it really works for me, and other days it just... ugh....

And you can totally see your grey.

You can't do anything with your bangs except use a bobby pin to put them back

And you feel ugly?


So I left work early and got this done

Friday, March 28, 2014

I've fallen and I can't get up!

Actually, that's not how it happened - but the result is the same.  I've been injured. Womp, womp, I know everyone goes through an injury and it SUCKS to take time off from doing what you love, but that's what I have had to do.

It started about a month ago, my lower back started bothering me.

And rather then listening to my body and letting it recover, I kept pushing it until it finally gave up and yelled at me.

I've been going to a chiropractor, and will be starting physio soon.

I took this week off, hope to get back to SOMETHING next week.

So I'm here, but not here.

Monday, March 17, 2014

14.3 - I need a brain that can count

Long story short, I don't know how to count.

Instead of increasing my deadlift weight from 135 to 155, I increased from 135 to 185 (and wondered why the heck it felt so heavy!).

So my score was 61.  It should have been much higher.

I was going to redo it today, but I didn't feel like it.  I did the regular workout today - it's not like I'm on the cusp of making the finals or anything :)


Anyone have a brain they aren't using for the next 40 years? I sure could use a new one right now.

Thursday, March 13, 2014


This definitely wasn't pretty.

I won't get into the details, but my score was a big ol 10.

Keep your fingers crossed for me that tonight the announcement comes with weight bearing exercises so I can actually get through a workout and some of the benefits of having tree trunk legs will work for me!